To change skins, evolve into new cycles, I feel one has to
learn to discard. If one changes internally, one should not continue to
live with the same objects. They reflect one's mind and psyche of
yesterday. I throw away what has no dynamic, living use.- Anais Nin

MY INTUITION

IT'S THE VOICE OF REASON THAT GOD GAVE ME

.....AND IT'S NEVER WRONG

My sentiments exactly

I am fed up. Fed up of second guessing, of walking on eggshells for supposed friends, of censoring my thoughts in case it might offend the easily offended, of not being true to myself because they are afraid to lose control over me, and holding back for the sake of others who are faint of heart. You can't please everyone, isn't that how the saying goes?

-Seasonal Lust

We will be okay :)

In this journey called life, every now and then I outgrow people, dynamics and situations. And I consciously decide to take on a new path of life. Although sometimes, it has just been the case of losing touch which results to me detaching myself from those same things, simply because my chosen path is so narrow that i have to indecisively decide (whoa...That’s a total oxymoron) who you are going to walk the line called life with.
Walking away from people situations and dynamics is always terrifying and no matter how long you interacted with the phenomenon or how you cherished it the loss you get from walking away is always profound.
Anxiety sets in and you ask yourself a lot of what now’s? And what ifs?
What if it’s the I-want-better-though-I-have-it -as –good-as-it-gets syndrome? (Commonly known as the grass is greener on the other side syndrome) or worse, what if it’s a manifestation of commitment phobia? Something of which I have occasionally been accused? Mmmh? What if I am making a wrong decision, one that I am going to regret in the long haul? What if? What if? And more what ifs?
Then the worst of em all...that nagging conflicting question: What now? Mmh? What is going to happen now? This thing, this person was once a big part of me and in some cases it was all I knew. Am I really going to develop new happy patterns that are non-inclusive of the phenomenon? What now?
Then all this dependency moans on how since this stuff don’t exist. i now don’t have that space and comfort that came with them, so I would have to create it because it’s gone.
But i still carefully weigh the situation. i look at the pros and cons and hope that i’ve made a sober decision, so i tread on, walk on and don’t look back.
Take this from me...chopping people, situations and dynamics off is one of the hardest thing to do. Believe that! Walking away/moving on takes a lot of strength and its always a huge step in the “movers” life. It’s a witness of a new dawn.. a change.
The wise men said that if you are not walking away from something, then you are no growing
Sometimes I feel desperately doubtful that maybe I am the one who initiated the fallout but at the same time I strongly believe that it takes two to tango. Therefore the latter overrides the doubt, because its also a definite truth in my books. A truth which has been proven by different people from time immemorial.
At the end of it all, I believe that Detaching is a deliberate choice that we make. it may possibly be influenced by "out of my control" issues but still i might as well hold on yet i choose not to. so it all boils down to this: I choose to cut off. Moreover, am happy to go for what I want. It’s the right decision for my personal happiness at the end. Although it’s probably a bit agonizing

And to the phenomenon that incited and equipped me with all this sentiments:
We don’t talk no more, well I guess that’s our silently agreed paradigm.
I never saw this coming, but I guess its part of the journey, this change thing, it can be good for me.
...and we will be ok 

Life carries on.


So long farewell...here comes change.



Hello mad fun.

THIS YEARS THEME: CREATING THE CORRECT MIND FRAME

Objectives:

· Override the fear of being wrong

· extend my creative bug

· Building a positive and powerful personality

· Attitudinal Adjustment

· Getting a personal approach to interpersonal interaction

· Beauty: inside and out

· Ignore Everybody

· EI/EQ

· Making amends with the past

· Correcting my mistakes

· Sharpening my language skills

· Planning and writing proposal and business plan

· Making selfish decisions

· Self actualizations

· Decisiveness

· Effort, Tenacity and Stamina

My Creed:

Buckle up, suck it up, tuff up, knuckle up and shut up...Life’s tough! Period.

My quote:

Life is a journey not a destination.

Bible verse:

For God has not given us the spirit of fear. But he has given unto us, the spirit of power, the spirit of love and a sound mind.

Theme songs:

· Hard

· He still loves me

· Psalms 23

· The climb

· i found myself

Vision:

To be a fearless influencer with a positive and powerful personality who can grow to her full potential and go for her dreams.

Manifesto:

I Prudence Zoe will live another day to see this happe

Song #1: The song that reflects what i am going through: Growth and all that jazz :)

So long
Farewell
Hello, to the new me
The better me

That's right
My Life...

[Verse 1:]
21, and I've realized,
Everything you want's not meant to be.
21 then you qualify,
To stand up to responsibilities.
So I tried to prioritize
By deciding what I know is best for me.

And then there's always, love that tries to trip you up.
You try to catch yourself before you hit the ground.
But nothings promised.
Friends are there to cheer you up,
To give you strength and build you up when you are down.
So I set sail emotion

[Chorus:]
I say
So long, farewell,
My life's moving forward.
My ship has sailed,
And I'm so glad it's over.
My heart is well,
After all that I've been through
I found myself.

[Verse 2:]
22, I hope that I'm,
With someone who truly cares for me.
If I'm not, I'll be alright,
I'll accept the time I know God has for me.
One day I'll be the perfect wife.
That's my destiny,
And I won't be afraid to try
though is always....

Love that tries to trip you up
But then someone who sweep you off the ground,
But nothings promised.
I'm not gonna give it up
Just because the last one let me down.
So I set sail emotion.

[Chorus:]
I say
So long, farewell,
My life's moving forward.
My ship has sailed,
And I'm so glad it's over.
My heart is well,
After all that I've been through
I found myself.

[Verse 3:]
I'm looking out for me,
Taking care of my needs.
Life isn't guaranteed,
It's time to start living.
It wont always be the same,
Can't be afraid of change.
You wanna have your way,
Demand till your Satisfied
You lower your self esteem,
You gotta live your dream.
It's all bout confidence,
To let them know that you can stand up.
You never try,
Learn to express you mind.
Sometimes you gotta fight,
It's your life so don't you give up.

[Chorus:]
I say
So long, farewell,
My life's moving forward.
That ship has sailed,
And I'm so glad it's over.
My heart is well,
After all that I've been through
I found myself.
After all that I've been through
I found myself.........

..

And I could write it better than you ever felt it." — Pete Wentz

This quote by Peter Wentz, Epitomizes where i want my writing to get.
To a place where humanity will realize what they feel by reading what i write.
Words that will appeal to the emotions..makes you want to cry, laugh, shout and stay quite.
words that will make you fee the desire to tap and get it touch with yourself.

I want to reflect all that and so much more by the way of my words

Why i blog.

Last year was one hell of an eye opener. It made me realize a lot on whats going on in my life,it pin pointed where i was in my life and gave me a glimpse of what is to become which was not what i wanted for me. This year,I made a conscious decision to devote this year to the development of me. To get out of any hole that am buried into, to bring out and exploit my potential to its fullness and to get out of my shell and conquer the world.
I desire to tap into myself and bring to life what i am all about.
I believe that life is too short not to get extroverted and not be the Beautiful you... all rounded.
the purpose of this blog is to document my life as i ravel into the Woman that i long to be.
Mainly because by writing i put things in perspective. the world of pen and paper( and in this case type pad and word document) is a precious gift to my sanity. i get alot of clarity by putting my thoughts down in black and white.
so here it is a place where i can pour it out for my own good.
Its all about me...about my spirituality, about style, about love, ambitions, school, interactions...
ME.
Welcome and feel free to comment and write me up