We will be okay :)

In this journey called life, every now and then I outgrow people, dynamics and situations. And I consciously decide to take on a new path of life. Although sometimes, it has just been the case of losing touch which results to me detaching myself from those same things, simply because my chosen path is so narrow that i have to indecisively decide (whoa...That’s a total oxymoron) who you are going to walk the line called life with.
Walking away from people situations and dynamics is always terrifying and no matter how long you interacted with the phenomenon or how you cherished it the loss you get from walking away is always profound.
Anxiety sets in and you ask yourself a lot of what now’s? And what ifs?
What if it’s the I-want-better-though-I-have-it -as –good-as-it-gets syndrome? (Commonly known as the grass is greener on the other side syndrome) or worse, what if it’s a manifestation of commitment phobia? Something of which I have occasionally been accused? Mmmh? What if I am making a wrong decision, one that I am going to regret in the long haul? What if? What if? And more what ifs?
Then the worst of em all...that nagging conflicting question: What now? Mmh? What is going to happen now? This thing, this person was once a big part of me and in some cases it was all I knew. Am I really going to develop new happy patterns that are non-inclusive of the phenomenon? What now?
Then all this dependency moans on how since this stuff don’t exist. i now don’t have that space and comfort that came with them, so I would have to create it because it’s gone.
But i still carefully weigh the situation. i look at the pros and cons and hope that i’ve made a sober decision, so i tread on, walk on and don’t look back.
Take this from me...chopping people, situations and dynamics off is one of the hardest thing to do. Believe that! Walking away/moving on takes a lot of strength and its always a huge step in the “movers” life. It’s a witness of a new dawn.. a change.
The wise men said that if you are not walking away from something, then you are no growing
Sometimes I feel desperately doubtful that maybe I am the one who initiated the fallout but at the same time I strongly believe that it takes two to tango. Therefore the latter overrides the doubt, because its also a definite truth in my books. A truth which has been proven by different people from time immemorial.
At the end of it all, I believe that Detaching is a deliberate choice that we make. it may possibly be influenced by "out of my control" issues but still i might as well hold on yet i choose not to. so it all boils down to this: I choose to cut off. Moreover, am happy to go for what I want. It’s the right decision for my personal happiness at the end. Although it’s probably a bit agonizing

And to the phenomenon that incited and equipped me with all this sentiments:
We don’t talk no more, well I guess that’s our silently agreed paradigm.
I never saw this coming, but I guess its part of the journey, this change thing, it can be good for me.
...and we will be ok 

Life carries on.


So long farewell...here comes change.



Hello mad fun.